Before I went to sleep last night, I was talking to him about a matter that broke my heart. As I drifted away and my eyes got heavier and heavier….all of a sudden I was at this beautiful wooden table. It looked like it was perfectly carved by a carpenter’s hand. It looked like a dark wood, I am not an expert on wood but all I know is that it wasn’t too light and it wasn’t too dark. I was sitting there with him in front of me, alone at this table. We were talking to each other in deep conversation but I could not hear what we were saying. It was like watching a movie completely muted. I was sad, it was like I was talking to him about a problem or concern that I was having and he was listening attentively. I kept laying all of it out on the table pouring my heart out to him and he was understanding. There was a wooden plate with bread and there was a wooden cup. The plate and cup were also beautifully hand carved, very simple and perfect. My counselor was wearing a white robe with his head covered. He broke the bread in front me and gave me half and we ate. Then he handed me his cup and I drank….then I woke up with the front of my forehead to the top of my crown burning. It felt like sun tan oil on my skin when I lay in the sun burning but much stronger….that is how my head felt. Here it is one day later and I still feel the external burning on my head….
I researched in scripture the Lord’s supper for the meaning of the bread and cup. This is what he revealed to me. The bread is a symbol of his body and a symbol that I have been set free. When I was eating from the bread, I was eating my deliverance out of selfishness and eating the Lord’s will. (Mark 8:34) I have died to myself and my desire to follow his will. I also felt the healing and confirmation from the Lord that what I went to him for counsel was true. And so I knew that I was on the right path and that the decision made was his will. The cup for me was a reminder of who I am in Christ, a reminder to never forget who I am in him. Ephesians 1:7-9 says that Christ sacrificed his life’s blood to set us free, which means that my sins are now forgiven. Christ did this because God was so kind to us. God has great wisdom and understanding, and by what Christ has done, God has shown us his own mysterious ways….Verse 10 goes on to say that when the time is right that God will do all that he has planned and Christ will bring together everything in heaven and on earth. The cup that I drank from in faith was nourishment, provision and support from my Lord. He supplies all of my needs and reminded me that in order to carry out his will, the “dead limbs” needed to be cut off. And so in this place that we call earth, in this human flesh I can continue forward one step at a time, one day at a time, one battle at a time confident that the Lord is with me.
I read about the The Lord’s Supper in Matthew 26-30 and it says during the meal Jesus took some bread in his hands. He blessed the bread and broke it. Then he gave it to his disciples and said, “Take this and eat it. This is my body.” Jesus picked up a cup of wine and gave thanks to God. He then gave it to his disciples and said, “Take this and drink it. This is my blood, and with it God makes his agreement with you. It will be poured out, so that many people will have their sins forgiven. From now on I am not going to drink any wine, until I drink new wine with you in my Father’s kingdom.” Then they sang a hymn and went out to the Mount of Olives.
In summary, one of my favorite passages to read in the bible is Psalms 23, The Good Shepherd. After I had this dream, the Lord brought me these words….Psalms 23:5-6 says “You treat me to a feast, while my enemies watch. You honor me as your guest by anointing my head with oil and you fill my cup until it overflows. Your kindness and love will always be with me each day of my life, and I will live forever in your house.” What an honor it is as a Christian to be able to sit at the Father’s table and talk to him about anything.
I am so thankful for my Lord, my Savior, my Redeemer, my Counselor….I could go on and on about who he is in my life. But most of all, his love is above all things.